We survived an earthquake!

Yesterday is pretty much a big blur of fear and anxiety. The earth quake changed how a lot of people around us will do things. It sent fear and panic into the lives of those who thought something like this would never happen in our area.

I really have too many thoughts to type about here today, but maybe when things settle I will be able to think more clearly.

It seems the aftershocks have stopped for the most part. We felt a slight one this afternoon, but nothing major. The pets have finally stopped being nervous and they are playing.

Kate (our 5 1/2 month old Shepherd) nearly had a heart attack over the whole thing and is very clingy today, but other than wanting some extra hugs she is okay.

Im just thankful we are all okay, the house is okay and the things that were moved or broken can be replaced or put back.

If Money Grew on Trees.....

Its been a very long time since I posted on here, but something tells me its time to start blogging again. Not for the sake of catching readers attention, but to just get some things off of my chest.

Another school semester starts on Monday and I am scared. I dont know really why I am scared, but I am.

Money is very tight here and it seems like every store I go in or every commercial on TV I feel like a kid at Christmas. Its sad to say, but I just want to go shopping without having to worry about money. I also want to have just one day without stress.

I feel like I am coming unraveled and I can not get some things under control. I feel guilt about some things, but yet at the same time relief.

I went out this evening and saw my dream cupcake maker! I WILL have this. I get the refund from my school in just a few short weeks and this is my first purchase, along with a book of decorating ideas. I am not looking to make myself independently rich, but I want to make cute cupcakes!!!

My wish for myself right now was that I was not so negative. I can be fine one moment and then just start thinking about things and feel out of control all over again. It makes me so scared, but its hard to talk about.

Hopefully a vacation will be on the books for me soon, but Im not holding my breath. I feel like last time I got my hopes up so much that I am still not recovered from that. It broke my heart to miss my family reunion, but more it broke my heart that I changed plans to go with my Dad to the reunion because I couldnt go with my boyfriend because of money and then Dad ended up in the hospital again. He is ok though and thats what counts.

I am going to make my introduction posts in my class..... also known as plugging myself to be something I really do not feel that I am.

6 Months... and Counting

Today marked the 6 month anniversary for my boyfriend and I. What a great thing to celebrate, except for the fact that I felt crappy all day.

5 years ago yesterday our family lost a great man. My Uncle Buddy passed away from cancer. It was such a sad time for our family and I feel like the family has never really healed from it and honestly never will. I know that I will always miss him and his antics, our talks and mostly the advice. I hope that he is in heaven enjoying seeing the accomplishments our family has made, but also to see some other things going on too.

I am already counting down to the week end. We are having a superbowl party. Should be fun, no matter who shows up. I am excited to have people over and to enjoy spending time with friends.

Tonight I am shopping for a Kindle. I am excited with the thought that I might be getting one, but also not sure what to expect.

Math... and all that jazz

I will never understand why the one subject that I cry over gives me the worst professors ever. I also do not understand why the definition of deadline had to be emailed to me today, but that lady needs to get a serious grip on reality! I am not behind, actually my homework is not due for nearly 48 more hours and I dont know why she made a big deal out of wanting everyone to be so ahead. That class is not easy to get ahead in, so she needs to just chill for sure.

We survived the flu... 2 bottles of Thera-Flu cough syrup, doses of Benadryl for itchy throats, Lysol for germy door handles and other things, cuddle time from a very lonely Shepherd and a lot of check in phone calls later.... we are well and lived through another adventure. I never thought I would be so happy to see the outside world. This was also my first time being that sick away from home and honestly I missed my Mom. It was nice to go home last night to my parents and get a few things accomplished there, but also nice to come back here too. Its hard to be torn like that.

I have a lot of work to finish before Sunday at Midnight including a Literature pre-test, Sociology test on the first 4 chapters and I could possibly get a draft of my Literature paper out for 2% extra credit. I dont know if that will happen or not. Also have a math homework and a half to finish and a quiz in that. God forbid its a minute late, even with being sick all week.

Next week end is the Superbowl and our much awaited and anticipated party. I am excited, but know theres a lot to be done before we can have people over and before it can be a success.

Much love to my followers, and hopefully these posts havent bored you all senseless.

Oh No.... Not Today.... Not Ever!!!

So I go to sleep last night with the thought and prayer that I would not wake up sick today.... well guess what. Sick... both of us sick. I am not believing this. This is too much with the fever, upset stomach, cough and sore throat. BLAH!!!!

I am waiting for my sociology discussion topic for this week. Hopefully it gets uploaded soon because Im tired of waiting, but then again do not feel like doing much anyway.

Today I put a roast in the crock pot and hoping that the flour I added will make a decent sauce. I dont know what we will have with it, but it wont be much considering I just dont feel like cooking. Thank God again for the crock pot.

Im watching Hoarders and this show makes me sick, yet I still watch it. I cant believe some of the things people collect. Last night on this same show a woman had dead chickens in her garage... A man was living with over 1000 rats, which began as 2 rats. I was very shocked, and more grossed out.

Supposing I feel better tomorrow I will be going back to Mom and Dads, but if not I might be right here for awhile. I am not going to risk getting anyone else sick and have already sent some warning texts for people to stay away!

Its naptime here and time to close this for now.

The O.C. Reruns and Wireless Internet....

So on this Friday I find myself sitting on the couch under a nice warm quilt after loving on my favorite German Shepherd and watching reruns of The O.C. I do not know why and never will why I enjoy this show so much, even though when it premiered I did not care for it.
Now its Rachael Ray time... I should be working on some homework, but I just do not feel motivated to do that. I feel that being ahead this week has allowed me to be able to focus on other things that are important to me.
Tonight Im going to bingo with Patrick and his Mom. Hopefully I will win something since I won $125 last time.

I am really out of things to type about. Will try to have something more interesting to say this week end.

A Different Attitude....

After my post earlier today I realized that I was just complaining for no good reason. I didnt have a real reason to be in a bad mood, it was just there.

I got out of bed and started going through my clothes. I already have 2 trash bags of things to take to Goodwill and will be adding to that when I go through the others.

Tomorrow should be an interesting day considering I have to sit in court in the morning with Dad to make sure he gets a fair trial against this cop that wrote him a running a red light ticket. I am not too pleased with that since the law code says that pretty much there has to be 100% proof the light was red and it was yellow when he proceeded through the intersection.

I am excited to have an American Idol date tomorrow night... sad to say I dont remember if I mentioned that in my earlier post.

Teen Mom 2 tonight made me so sad for Leah. I feel bad for her and Corey. Their baby looks to have a long road ahead of her.

I took a nap tonight and now Im not sure if I will be able to go back to sleep any time soon. This might be a long night.....